Thursday, February 10, 2011

Crazy?

I don't think a day has gone by since Melody was born that I haven't heard some sort of comment about the size of our family.  I get it.  We're an anomaly.  We don't fit into society's definition of what a perfect family should be.  Lots of people say (or imply) that we are crazy.  Most moms will say something like, "You must be supermom.  I could never handle that many kids!" or "Goodness, I can barely handle my one!  I don't know how you handle five at once."

The comments are usually easy to brush or laugh off.  Sometimes I just nod and smile, sometimes I give back a quippy response, sometimes I try to explain that it's not all that difficult.

But sometimes it is.  Sometimes it is just plain hard.  Sometimes my heart is torn in five different directions and I have no idea who needs me the most.  Sometimes I have a little one in my arms, another little one pulling on my jeans and sobbing in exhaustion "mama, mama", another one laying in bed with a fever, another one stomping her feet in anger, and another one trying to tell me about ewoks and wookiees and who knows what else.  Not to mention the grilled cheese is burning.

In those moments, I find myself agreeing with those other moms who think I'm crazy.  I don't think I can handle it.  I don't have enough hands, and I just can't do it all.

It really is true.

But I have help.  When I'm weary, He gives rest.  When I'm overwhelmed, He gives peace.  When I'm sad, He gives comfort.  When I have nothing left to give, He girds me up and gives me strength.  He is my refuge and strength.  When I call, He answers.  He rescues me.  He protects me.  He delivers me.

He is my fortress.  I will never be shaken.

2 comments:

  1. Glad I could help. Oh wait... ;)

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  2. As your days, your strength shall be in measure . . . which is why when you only have one child you can't imagine having the strength for two, or three, or more . . . because God gives you the strength you need and that's all.

    I love you. (And I do think you're crazy but it has nothing to do with the size of your family. LMBO).

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